Dear first love,

oooooo, I wish I could hate you. Lol. EVERY bone in my body wishes I could. My heart does too. Shit would’ve been so much easier for me if I could do it, I just can’t. I don’t have it in me. And I won’t lie to people and say I do. Do I dislike you? Fuck, I don’t think I’ve ever disliked someone so much. But I can’t take that leap towards hating you… I think you’re a coward. I think you’re a liar. I think you’re deceitful. And I think you’re undeserving of all the time, tears, and effort I put into our relationship. I think you thought that I would never leave, so you treated me like you treated me. And… I think I forgive you. Thanks for two years of lessons. And you’ll forever have a place in my heart, as teeny tiny as it may be.. it’ll still be there.